To Be or Not to Be…That is the Answer!
Deep in the heart of darkness, there is a small part of me that wants freedom. In the dark where there are no pictures, no sounds, no smells, nothing. I may understand what is out beyond the darkness, but to reach it I must give myself to the light, which without any around me, is hard to find. So I sit and wait. This may sound dismal but in reality, it is not. To me the most comforting place to be is in a quiet, secluded, place, free from all interruptions and distractions.
The darkness allows me to focus and create. As ideas flow through my head I build my imagination. I allow myself to experiment with ideas and play through different strategies to accomplish tasks.
I am in my dark formless space each night. And there, it is my dreams that create the images that I can see, though there is no light in the room which I stay in. Ideas flourish as my mind wanders. Too bad, there is no device that can capture that which I build and create. For when that freedom I seek for in the light comes, I take it, though it is always at the wrong time. My thoughts have not coalesced and formed lasting memories; I forget.
Even though that part of me that wants freedom, it would prefer to stay in the dark where all the stories play themselves out.
But wait, there is another place that is like the heart of darkness and is kept in the light of the pen and keyboard. Their glowing embers, call to me and seek out the stories within me. As I grab onto pen or pencil or touch the keyboard, I feel some of the same comfort and images that have eluded me and I write.
That freedom, so desired in the heart of darkness is found. It grows in the light and becomes, not just ideas, but real stories and events, of sight, smell, sound, taste, and touch. It becomes who I am and who I choose to be for all to see and hear.
Being part of both dark and light worlds is how I write and create. It is what I do and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
